Is your life getting too hard for you? Does it feel like you are a victim and powerless. Do your problems keep repeating themselves? If you feel as if you have lost hope? Then, it is time to find a new way to handle your living. These and more problems led me to a new perception about life and its challenges. At one point, I made a phone call out of desperation. I was told there is always hope. This brought a new vision into my life.
Through wanting to improve my situation, I found a spiritual path out of the past and moving into living in the now. I had been reacting from the past trauma, difficulties, and lack of love growing up in a dysfunctional family. How do you ever move beyond the past and live in reality. I had never lived in my truth, but that of my parents, their parents, and so on. Was I up to growing beyond the fear, anger, resentments, shame, guilt, and other negative emotions into one of unconditional love?
First, I had to be honest that I was powerless in my life. The lack of honesty is insanity that comes from the fearful messages of my brain/ego. Was I ready to be as honest as possible with myself to move into sanity? That would take a commitment to turn my life over to a loving higher power to replace the fears. I had to trust that love could bring a better life. Being physically beaten early in life and told. “I am only doing this because I love you” was a big hurdle for me. I thought love hurt. Somehow, the courage to turn my life over to a loving universe, that Created me made sense. The leap of faith was a big one.
My path lead to identifying all the barriers I had built to protect myself from more harm. These barriers were actually stopping my receiving the love I desired from manifesting in my life. I had to open my heart to receive the gifts I had blocked, thinking I was shielding myself from more problems. In reality, they were like walls preventing the love from manifesting. Staying angry, fearful, and guilty stopped the life I wanted.
Finding a trustworthy person, counselor, or friend to share my fears and traumatic past was necessary. I was leaving the past behind me. I had to express them to let them go and leave space for the good energies to fill the new void. After each time of sharing, I felt lighter. It felt good. I wanted to continue cleaning out my past completely for the love and grace replacing the past emotions that kept me a victim and powerless. I was not such a bad person. Each time, I released an old feeling I replace it with love and grace. I felt liberated.
Then I proceeded to make reparation for my side of old difficulties with others, I felt a new freedom. My stress reduced and I felt a power I never felt before. The past no longer was my focus. Now, I could live one day at a time, while I had to continue releasing daily anger and shame.
A continual daily inventory keeps me current. I have left the past and have matured. Being in the presence of love has become the most important part of each day. I base my new life in “Thy Will Be Done”, instead of My Will Be Done. Responding in loving resolutions with all my encounters does not recreate the problems. When I am in the “Now”, I am in reality.
To maintain my conscious connection with my higher power of a loving spirit within my heart, I found meditation bypasses the ego messages of negativity. I learned that I have to give love away to keep it. This brings more love into my experience. My reward is the good feelings. What I send out comes back. Some people say, what goes around comes around.
The new basis for my life is often called being a new creature. With my open heart I contribute to others, volunteer in the community, and am in service positions in my organizations. Love moves in a circle to return. You are actually are enhancing your own life in helping others. Love grows when shared and good feelings are the prize. Being honest, open-minded, and willing to change brought the life I always wanted. I was looking for love in all the wrong places.
This higher level of consciousness brings me into grace. I am no longer running the show. My ego is no longer determining my action but allowing divine assistance to bring the results. Life flows easily into the next right indicated thing. My needs are met. Staying in gratitude continues my new life style. I no longer am a fear-based person but a love-based person free of the ego and past. Love never fails. God’s grace is sufficient.
The details of this process for finding your inner love within your heart are in my book, “Paradigm Busters” at Amazon
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